Sicky sick sick...

It's totally cool I've been sick sick sick for the past three days. I thought it was gonna go away. Monday I stayed home from class...probably just exhaustion. But then yesterday I start feeling a scratch in my throat and go "oh crap". I know what that means.

YOU ARE DOOMED TO A SOAR THROAT FOR AT LEAST 2 WEEKS.

Great...good thing I have a concert tomorrow night I'm supposed to sing at....yeah for me!

I felt like I was gonna pass out today. I wore my pajamas from the night before, put on a big sweater, put on my "you look fat" jacket (according to brother William), threw on the slippers with my much too big socks...hair thrown back in a falling out bun...

and yet...I still felt confident.

Ya, I wanted to DIE epically all day. All day my mind was on that HUGE test of life that I had at 3 o'clock...cram cram cram to get Composer and Art Song information in my head...stick stick. But I felt good.

I came home after my test feeling good about it and took out my hair. Even with my pale face with red splotches and cracked lips, it was an "ariel" moment. I let the hair fall, all wavy from my bun...and I felt good.

I threw on a skirt, gray tights, and converse shoes and felt good. Good meaning, I still have a screaming throat of death with nasal congestion, but I rule the world. There is always a way to make yourself feel better when you feel sicker than a dead dog.

Walking over to dinner with my purple coat and scarf tight around my neck to keep it warm, I felt true happiness. The sun was just setting, and I could feel the wind on my face.

I am still feeling like my body is going to collapse in a milla-second, but...I still feel good. ;)

Love always,
Little Besty

Penguin Love

It's time to introduce you all to my little penguin. ;)

Isn't he just the cutest, fluffiest, little thing ever?! Ah.

It's totally fine I'm in love with a stuffed animal and being super affectionate about my new little item of stuffed-ness. Haha!

Have any of you seen the Madagascar Penguin episodes?
Well I've discovered this new obsession. Ever found a show or something with your almost exact humor? The kind that really gets you going? Well, Madagascar Penguins does that for Little Ally Best. The moment I saw the penguins on Madagascar, wow. I loved them. I adore penguins as it is and is one of my favorite animals ever upon ever. So, when these guys were created, I was all for it. My buddies showed me an episode of their own show on the internet about a week ago and now I have to watch them everyday! They always make me happier. Ah.

So, back to my penguin.
It appeared outside my front door last night, all wrapped up-complete with duck tape and labeled with a "Happy Birthday Ally!". I ended up being from a good friend who knew I loved penguins.

My friends, if you have seen these Madagascar Penguins episodes, you will know why this little guy.....
is named Private. There's a whole episode dedicated to how adorable Private is. I saw the tag that came with him, and went straight to Private instead of Rico, Kiwalski, and Skipper.


And this.

! Ah ha ! My life is complete. He is so little oh my goodness.

Yet again, it's totally fine I'm having a happy break-down about a stuffed animal. You would too if you saw this guy. I need something to help me stay upbeat here at school. The End.

Ally and baby penguin. Ah.

Haha. Have a good day everyone.

Love,
Little Besty

P.S. Put Madagascar Penguin Episodes in YouTube and click on the 11 minute episodes! You'll get hooked!

A Thought on Love

Like everyone, I have those days where my little thoughts wander to my future eternal companion. I wonder who it will be...how I'll meet him...how our day at the temple will be...etc. However, the number one thing I know I need to do is not be anxious about it. I can plan for my future and work on being the best wife and mother possible, but as far as worrying about how and when I'll meet him...that's all in the Lord's hands.

With these thoughts running through my mind this morning, I came upon this blog talking about love. The women talked about the commercial, worldy love, and then how the love of God is infinite...pure...and cannot even be comprehended by even the apostles of olden times. I looked below at the comments, and a reader left her thoughts, and then posted this letter written in Heavenly Father's perspective-author unknown. May I share it with you?

"On His Plan For Your Mate

Everyone longs to give himself completely to someone: to have a deep soul relationship with another; to be loved thoroughly and exclusively. But, God to a Christian says, no, not until you are satisfied, fulfilled, and content with being loved by Me, alone. With giving yourself totally and unreservedly to Me. To having an intensely personal and unique relationship with Me, alone. Discovering that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found, will you be capable of the perfect human relationship that I plan for you.

You will never be united with another until you are united with Me, really united with another, exclusive of anyone, or anything else, exclusive of any other desires or longings. I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing...one that you cannot imagine.
I want you to have the best, please allow Me to bring it to you. Just keep watching Me...expecting the greatest things. Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I Am. And keep listening and learning the things I tell you.

You just wait, that's all...wait. Don't be anxious, don't worry, don't look around at the things that others have gotten or I have given them. Don't look at the things you think you want. Just keep on looking towards Me, or you will miss what I want to show you. And then, when you are ready , I'll surprise you with a love far more wonderful than anything you would dream of.

You see, until you are ready and until the one I have for you is ready, and I am working even at this moment to have both of you ready at the same time. Until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me and the life I prepare for you, you won't be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with Me. And this is perfect love. And, dear one, I want you to have the most wonderful love.

I want to see in you, in the flesh a picture of your relationship with Me. And I want you to enjoy materially, the everlasting union and beauty and perfection and love that I offer you with Myself. I know that I love you utterly. I am El Shaddai-most loving Father, God Almighty. Believe it and be satisfied and I will satisfy you.

Author unknown" {Italics added}

Wow. Right? Stop fretting about it, stop biting your nails over it-just appreciate everything Heavenly Father has given you, trust in Him, love Him, believe in Him, and when we are both ready...he will give us one another-a gift of the most wonderful love! He knows how hard we all work to be the best we can be so that we can one day be worthy of our future companion. He will give us what we worked so hard for-and we will grow together with the love of God imprinted permanently in our hearts!

I really adore this picture. ;)

Love Always,
Little Besty

Once upon a time there was a young woman who was the luckiest person in the world. ;)

It just so happened that Little Besty turned the age of 19 on this day of October 17th. Twas wonderful to say the least. I have thought long and hard about what to do for my birthday post...and the same thing kept coming back to my mind. So I probably should go with it, right?

This whole weekend I have felt so humbled and extremely blessed. I am lucky. It's as simple as that. There were so many moments where tears of joy filled my eyes and my heart swelled with joy as I recognized how wonderful life is. So, in the name of President Monson, I find it quite appropriate to celebrate day of birth by telling all of you a few things I am grateful for, in particular what I'm grateful for this weekend.

I am grateful for...
*My dearest family. I am so blessed that they love me and take care of me. I know I don't deserve it but it's a tender mercy he has given me.
*I can say I know the true definition of friend because I am surrounded by beautiful, incredible people who enrich my life everyday. They are such wonderful lights in my life and I am so glad that I have my buddies.
*I have a place to call home. I walk in the doors of my house that I've lived in for 19 years and know inside I have a "home". It is a place I feel safe.
*Sunshine. Glorious sunshine.
*Rain. What a way to cleanse the earth.
*Microwave cake. Who would have thought.
*I have a knowledge..all on my own, that God lives.
*The priesthood is so real. So real. Power of God given to men!
*Deacons. They are so humble and small and I am so grateful they pass the sacred sacrament to me every sunday.
*Priesthood leaders that know me and care about me.
*My roommate. Gypsy is such a phenomenal young woman. I'm glad she takes care of me...even though I drive her nuts a lot.
*Little children.
*Singing!
*My beautiful mom and amazing Daddy.
*My Aunt Cheri
*Pillows
*Water bottles
*How much good there really is in this world. It is MIRACULOUS!
*Friendly people.
*Technology, when used right.
*Books. Glorious Books!
*My scriptures
*Sweats

Just to name a few. ;) Seriously, I feel so filled with the spirit that I could create an avalanche or tidal wave! Ah! I love this feeling. When you just know that life is so fantastic. Ah. Ah. Ah.

Today I....

*Ate cake.
*Feel asleep on my pillow
*Missed my highland singles ward
*Went to my highland singles ward
*"Fish!!!" said Hi to me. I love her.
*Was very very brave :)
*Talked to a dear friend
*Realized how lucky I am...
*Got lots of hugs
*Happy Birthday!
*Cut my sister's bangs
*Watched children color and thought of my own little future kids
*Thought about my husband
*Felt the spirit
*More fully understood the sacrament
*Felt really happy when Brother Mark Dahl called me "Ally Best.." and gave me a handshake
*Went to three mission farewells
*Missed childhood
*Ate rice pilof!
*Didn't know how to spell pilof...
*Loved my Aunt Cheri
*Carried a lot of stuff
*Sang at a fireside
*Felt bad that a friend is moving away...
*Saw a dear dear friend who is awesome and so great and just wonderful.
*Missed late night talks with William
*Actually walked and danced in the rain all by myself. Who thought you could have such a fantastic birthday and top it off with such a magical thing like dancing in the rain? Thanks for that one.
*Cried
*Laughed
*Life is good
*Ate Chicken-in-a-Biscuit
*"I am a Child of God"

I have so much to share today! I could go on forever! K. One quote though I read 5 million today it feels like.

"Happiness is the realization of God in the heart. Happiness is the result of praise and thanksgiving of faith, of acceptance, a quiet tranquil realization of the love of God". -White Eagle

Today is an epic day. Not because it is my birthday, but because it is simply just a good day. Everyday is a good day. It just depends how you look at it.

I love thee world. I am so blessed and humbled at the chance to become better and better...to prepare for the temple..to be given the greatest gift of all, the love of God. Take care this day and always. Thank you to Everyone. You all contribute to this world and I want to recognize you. ;) Have a phenomenal day.

Love always,
Little Besty

Ready

I've been having a lot of tussles lately...about my life...my future...my present condition...and I realize....sometimes, life just gives us curve balls. It's rough-my knees get dirty, I fall on my face, and almost get hit with the ball coming right at me. But...I have to stay in the game. Because if I'm dedicated to my team and to my biggest fan supporting me on the sidelines...then I'm gonna feel good at the end of the game. I did my best and can walk away a champion.

The biggest thing running through the mind of Ally Best is "be everything you want in a future companion". Now, I'm not jumping up and down saying, "I need to get married now!". I can wait till the Lord feels I, Miss Best and my husband who is out there somewhere are both ready. But I constantly think how every single one of my actions is going to effect my worthiness of getting the best guy ever for ally best. Everything I do...I will do it in regards to the fact that I want my husband to be proud of me when I get to him. And most importantly, that Heavenly Father can be proud of us both for working to hard to be worthy of each other.

I'm going here someday...and will be sealed for time and all eternity-binded by the glorious covenants Heavenly Father has given his children.

And I will be ready. ;)

Love Always,
Little Besty

DAVID

The News is Out

If you haven't heard already, Mr. DAVID ARCHULETA is the special guest artist this year for the Mormon Tabernacle Choir Christmas Concert-only one of the biggest concerts EVER in the LDS church.

It's fine that I almost burst through the roof of my dorm room when I heard it from my sister in a text. My whole heart just literally exploded. It's fine. Totally fine.

I am not obsessed with the boy, but let's say I was and still am an avid fan of his music. I sing the songs, I've played "Crush" over 100 times, loved watching him on American Idol, read about him in his book, thought he was just the greatest role model for artists who want to keep their standards when they become famous....ya. David is pretty great.

Dear World::
I will be sitting as close as possible, hopefully hiding in the bushes on the stage of the conference center, in the month of December-waiting for Mr. Archuleta to sing with the choir I have grown up with.

Yeah!

Love always,
Little Besty

The Will

The Will

One of the hardest thing to do as a human being is admit that you're wrong. No one likes being told they should feel awful, bad, or ashamed of themselves. Haha can you imagine? "Hey, will you please tell me that I need to look over my life and seriously consider changing some things? It will be so fun!". Ya. No one enjoys that like chocolate. It's difficult...and hard.
However, think when the day comes when you actually say, "ya, I did something wrong"....doesn't that show some will to want to be better? For me personally...when I know that I just really goofed off and say that I was dumb and learned my lesson...that means that I'm ready to change.

A great priesthood leader that I admire told me today that I may have made a dumb choice, BUT....I am always greeted with open arms when I want to change. "We love you". We have the power of agency..and that can be taken away in a second if we use it wrong. I..understand the true importance of listening to the spirit...but in a new dimension. I knew that it was my best friend, I used it and loved the feeling it brought, but now I've just added another layer to why and HOW I know this is true. Thanks Elder Richard G. Scott for making me feel better today. I know I made a mistake and more importantly know and realize that it can fix it, make it disappear from memory and forget. I'm changing, becoming better.

Well, here I am. Changed. Knowing I will never "try the slightly rotting apple" twice. You wish you don't even have to try it once...but sometimes you do and you stumble, but you have to choice and power to never take another bite. Progressing is so refreshing. ;) It's like getting to the final Icecream Palace in Candy Land at the end. You may have come upon the Licorice Lord in your deck of cards and been bumped back to the beginning. But our Savior can make it easier by giving us a rainbow bridge across the lane. ;)


There is always hope. ;)

Love you world.

Love always,
Little Besty