1.11.11

{THE Post the World's Been Waiting For}

Everyone,
hold on to their seats.


Yes,
it is FINALLY time
for the post the world,
universe, and all of time
has anxiously been
waiting for.

The fact that I'm even blogging
about this is STILL
blowing my mind.

Is he REALLY still here?
Am I gonna wake up from this dream
and find myself
without my best friend,
once again?

Now THAT is the definition of
NIGHTMARE.

Well, here's to hoping
I never wake up from this dream. ;)
***
Ladies and Gents,
littlebestypublishing presents:

{The Return of the Missionary*}

It all started about a month previous.
{Well, 4 years ago during a play,
but for the sake of the story,
let's just start here.}
I sat in my kitchen and could not,
for the life of me,
get down my yummies before me.

How long was this tummy trouble
going to last?
What was wrong?

My thoughts drifted to the usual
thoughts of my BFF soon to arrive,
and then I realized....
duh.
You can't even eat you're freaking
out so much about this, girl!

It was true.
It's a miracle I survived
with such little substance.

{For the sake of the well-being
of my mother and family,
I am eating quite well, once again ;)}.

The day was coming FAST.
All the emotions of 5 million goldfish
were running through my every
fleeting mind.

What's gonna happen!
What if this...
What if that....
Ah, my potato is burning...wait.

Scratch the last one. ;)

WHAT!

Well, it never got better,
besides the constant reminder
that I trusted in Heavenly Father's
will above anything else.

It would all work out how it was supposed to.

It was just the "supposed to" that scared me.

Shall we cut to the chase?

{The Day Before::}
I went to class
{not mentally},
and finished up my last minute
packing and arrangements.

I had to wait until 5:00 PM to jump
into the car to zoom out of Cedar,
and the anxiety was going to
MASSACRE
my whole body.

Yet, I felt chill.
Cool.
Relaxed.
I could do this.
Yeah.

Well, 5 finally came-
and I drove off.

Let's be real.
I may have cried
just a wee bit
for the mere fact
I was ACTUALLY making
that drive I thought would
never arrive.

I stopped by the Scipio Petting Zoo
along the way to calm my pumping heart.

{Side note: Not all baby rabbits are friendly}

When I reached home,
it felt like a dream.

I went over to his house
to practice a song with
his sister...and it just felt
so....SURREAL.
It wasn't possible that
I'd be sitting next to him in less
than 24 hours!

Well, I'd soon find that it was. :)

That morning,
I got up and felt quite collected.
It wasn't real yet.
In the slightest.
I went out on my own and bought
some new jeans.
{my other ones had ripped completely
open right before my drive home-ha!}
This was actually the best thing
I could have done that morning.
I had time to relax...
chill...
and pull myself together.

I came home,
and Ginger {his mommy}
called to say they were almost
to the airport.

Not real yet.
Or...maybe a little.

My family and I went
to his house to set up balloons
in the front yard and
make sure everything was ready to go.

Might I mention,
he had the COOLEST sign ever.
{Melissa, we ROCK!}
I loved that family put hand prints
{and Ginger's foot print}
on the sign.
Such a great idea!

Looks good, eh? ;)

Now...the waiting began.

Let's just forget the heartache,
anxiety, and impatience that occurred
in the past 2 years.

The next hour was torture.

I sat in his home
with my family-
then I went outside to wait
{which is where he would come
to see me}.

I felt something like this:

{Thanks to Leafy for capturing
all these moments :)}

Oh goodness.

So,
he actually came to the house
for a split second to use the restroom
before he went to get set apart-
so imagine being me.

I can hear his laugh
from outside,
but can't see him.

Torture,
once again.

I wait again.
And my sister gets
a shot of me doing this:

Ya, I was a wee bit nervous.
The past 2 years built up in my head.
I thought of everything I could in those
45 minutes that I waited after he'd
been to the house.

I thought of everything the typical MG
would think of.
"What if..."

It was all about to come to pass-
the actual "what will" happen,
and, let's be honest,
I almost ran away.

But didn't. ;)

Suddenly,
the sister signaled to me
from the window where she was
oh so carefully placed to snap a shot
of the first time we saw each other
while still keeping the moment "ours",
that he had walked through the door.

Heart stopping.

I can hear him happily greeting
all my family inside the house
and he's laughing.

Oh sheesh.

Then,
I hear the doorknob
to the backdoor turn...

it creaks open...

and the whole world made sense.

There he was.
He couldn't be real.
No way.
Nu-uh.

He smiled THE greatest grin
I've ever beheld as he stood
on the top of those cement steps.

Light headed.
I laughed.

I couldn't even look at him-
it couldn't be!

Suddenly,
He bolted down the steps
so fast that I didn't even realize
till 10 seconds later that I was
in his arms.

Whoosh!

Then 5 guzillion and 1
things occurred.
Thoughts and confirmations
fleeting in and out of my mind
like a film-reel stuck in
el super fasto mode.

But seriously?
It was like a gushing waterfall
of events, happenings, the last 4 years,
letters, heartache, tears, laughter, memories,
"thank heavens you're here" 's, goodness,
and clarity cascaded all over me.

We just kept holding on.

I wondered...
If I let go,
will he disappear
once again?

Well,
I snapped into reality for a split second
and realized this young man
had, in all seriousness,
just gotten fresh off the press
of being released,
so I didn't want to push my limit.
I pulled away,
...but he pulled me back.

Here's the shot the world
always wants. :)


While in the midst of the hug,
I asked if he was real life.

He said, "I sure hope so!"

:) Yeah.

And that was that.

We went in the house,
and he looked like he had just
been hit by a lightning bolt.

Poor thing.
Talk about utter shock.

Imagine that adjustment,
my friends.

On my side of it,
as I sat on the couch with
my siblings and his nephew,
who was snapping shots with the camera for fun,
I had to keep looking over at the RM
over and over again,
just to make sure he was really there.

This is what I looked like soon after
we saw each other.
{Taken by his nephew, Jayden. ;)}

Can you see the shock I had
on my face?

Haha, oh boy.
Fresh off the mish.

I couldn't believe the "growin' up"
that had happened while he was gone.

Of course he's still the stick boy
we all remember ;),
but he had grown up-and I like it!

Well, friends,
the rest of that day
was somewhat of a blur,
due to utter shock and
"this can't be real"ness
occurring.

Of course I remember
every minute,
{who wouldn't?}
but if you wanna know more detail,
you'll have to contact me
and I'll happily fill you in. ;)

One thing I do want to mention,
however;
We took a little walk later that night,
just me and him,
and it felt exactly the same.

He was still him.
Yeah, he's grown in ways
that were marvelous and truly
phenomenal,
but he was still same ole'
Chad.

You can imagine the relief
I felt from that. ;)

Over the next few days,
we spent time together
with both our families and friends.

The morning after he returned,
we went to do baptisms
{he hadn't been to the temple in 2 years
due to lack of a temple in his mission},
which was the greatest thing EVER.

I highly recommend that option
for an activity. ;)

Later that night,
we semi celebrated Halloween
because I wouldn't be home for
the holiday {once again},
and Chad and his family came over.

:)

Let's be honest, folks.
I never imagined it would be
this good.

Everything just clicked,
and happiness was everywhere.

Do people actually deserve
this type of happiness?
I just didn't think one person
could contain all that bouncy,
crazy sweet joy inside and still
live to tell the tale.

Anyway,
he gave an incredible talk
on Sunday-
and I was just blown away.

I mean,
what had happened to the boy before?
Don't get me wrong-
Chad Edward Johnson was fantastic before
the mission,
but he had been transformed.

Or,
like he likes to put it,
"Truly Converted".

I couldn't be happier, folks.

Of all the advice I could give,
if you're writing a missionary,
whether friend, possibility, or yours,
keep living your life.
Do not put it on hold.

Yes,
I completely understand
how much you care,
but you will find the greatest joy
and happiness together
when you can sit down after
those 2 years
and you realized you've both grown
into spectacular individuals
with the time you were given.
And you end up incredibly close
as friends afterwards because
of the dedication and sacrifice
you gave to the Lord.

Don't be discouraged
if it doesn't work out.
Wouldn't you want what
the Lord knows to be best for you?

He's going to give you the greatest happiness
possible for you when it comes
to your eternal sweetheart-
so have faith and trust in Heavenly Father
and it will work out if it's supposed to.

Besides,
you grew leaps and bounds
in that blessed time. :)

And the other advice?
Never settle.
Never think that the sweetest,
greatest, all you dreamed of,
special person won't come into your life.
They will. ;)
No one is perfect-
but you can love an imperfect person perfectly.

You may get to the point where
you just want to give up-
but DON'T do it.
You wait.
Live and wait.
Because it will come.
I promise you that.

Also,
give it a chance.
You'll never know unless you risk
just a little. Right?


I hope this satisfied the waiting souls. ;)

Be ready for more adventures to come!

Trust in Heavenly Father,
and you will be blessed.

And that's a promise.

Love always,
Little Besty

26.10.11

Changes in Snow and Mr. Coat



Alright,
that's it.

No,
my dear friends.

This will not be the post
that the whole universe has been
waiting for,
{Don' t worry...it's coming soon!}
but I just couldn't resist writing
to my dear cosmos of internetty...
beauty?...

Ok...that was lame.

5 points taken away
from Gryffindor
for lack of intelligence.

{Cue smack on the forehead}

Anywho...
today I got to thinking
about some stuff.
Which is completely off the rocker,
I know. ;)

When I went downstairs to greet the day,
I opened the door with a light sweater
to accompany me on my way to school,
and a lovely layer of SNOW
decided to join me.

"Oh...hello snow.
I didn't know you were
coming...I didn't expect you.."
{awkward!}

So I had to get my friend
Mr. Coat to come with me
so I didn't feel so socially
unstable to deal with such uneasiness.
Which, I might add,
made sweater feel all hurt and stuff,
so I'll have to deal with that drama later.
Sheesh.

Regardless of sweater's hurt feelings,
Remind me to send Mr. Coat
a box full of chocolates
tomorrow with my most
thankful regards.

And I'll take sweater to lunch.

Back to Snow.

I guess I got over all
the silence that then came to pass
once I actually stepped outside
with Snow...

Ugh.
Question for my audience.
Am I just SUPER not able
to carry on a normal conversation?

I mean,
I want Snow to feel
validated and that he matters,
but I just don't know if we
have the right chemistry,
ya know?

Anyway.
Back again to Snow.

I must not be a good enough
listener,
because by mid-afternoon,
Snow left me.

So?
What can you do?
I mean, it just wasn't
flowing like it should
and I didn't see a future
with us...
so I guess I'll get over
the fact that I feel awful
about hurting Snow's feelings.

Next time?
I'll be ready,
at any given moment,
to give Snow my full attention
and anticipation.

There.
I'm glad that's set in stone.

.....:)

******************

Okay,
so on a more serious note,
besides my childish talk of
how the weather and my clothing
are my closest friends,
the weather today got me thinking about some stuff.

This morning,
there was indeed a blanket of fresh
snow caressing the earth.

It was unexpected,
and frigid.

Maybe....
this can be related
to experiences that happen to us.

Unexpected...
Come out of nowhere...
and they make us feel
cold, frigid even, and alone.

However...
they sort of have a beauty
to them,
don't they?

I mean,
crystalized objects
falling from the heavens
seems a BIT surreal
to me.

And those flaky objects
falling from the sky
make us better.

Soon,
our hardships will pass,
and by noon-day,
the Son will come
and melt our worries....
and stresses...
and frozen hearts.

Just like THAT.
{snap of fingers}

And that process
and how fast it can happen
is a bit unexpected and surreal
all in itself.

Yes?


Let's find the magnificence
in those delicate flakes....

even if they require an awkward
encounter with Snow. :)

Love always,
Little Besty



16.10.11

Bubbly, Turning Insides has never been more Pleasant



If my stomach keeps
squirming like it has for
the past 4 weeks,
I'm gonna have some
KILLER ABS
by the end of this week.

...because let's be real.
It AIN'T gonna stop.
It's just gonna get more intense.

I wonder if I'll even be able
to put food in my body in the next
5 days.

{Obviously I have to
or else I will die.
So, don't worry}

Because today?
I had a whole 6 million
pound "brucey" chocolate
birthday cake sitting
in front of me,
and I could barely get down
2 gulps.

Why?

'Cause I realized, the next time
I sit down at a table to eat
food in my hometown,
he'll be sitting right next to me.

And I seriously think food
will be the LAST thing going
through my mind during
those breaths...seconds...
and moments.

Sheesh.

See?
Even now,
my tummy is doing flips!
Aerials!
Cart Wheels!

5 DAYS.

I'm not gonna deny the fact
that my mind is exploding
{and my stomach has joined
in on the fun now, apparently}
for the fact that
this is real.

It's really happening,
whether I'm ready or not.

My Best Friend
is returning with honor
from the OTM
as a full-time missionary
of the Lord,
this Friday.

He has fulfilled
his mission,
and will continue to fight
in this battle
and bring his brothers and sisters
to Christ the moment he walks
off that plane.

I couldn't be more proud
of my very Best Friend
in the entire universe.

So, kids?

Life is good.
Good things happen.
We are blessed.
And Heavenly Father loves us.

Have a wonderful week.


'Cause my squirmy tummy
and I sure will!

Love always,
Little Besty

14.10.11

At Last

Thank HEAVENS
for the beautiful, 4 day weekend!

I must say,
a dash of cabin stayin',
friend playin',
birthday celebratin',
package openin',
and blissful sleepin'
sounds quite superb
to muah!!!!

Fall break,
here I come!

Love always,
Little Besty

10.10.11

Which



Sometimes...
we have to make choices.

Ahead of time.

When you put the items
on the scale,
which one is going to
give me what I REALLY want?

What I eternally want?

Things to consider:

*Is the product made sweet with
real sugar, or enhanced "sweet and low"?

*Am I gonna get past the day of "purchase"
or arrival of the gift
and still be happy that I have
forever with that present?

Or will it dull with age?

Or stay a classic, beautiful original.

All the countless lists
and expectations....
the ones that really matter...
I will do whatever
it takes to fulfill those
promises and covenants.

Because eternal happiness
is worth it.


Love always,
Little Besty


3.10.11

"I Got You"


Sometimes?
I get in that
"what if" mood
and start freakin' out
about the smallest things
in life.

Even what I want to do
with that piece of chicken.

I mean,
I could roast it.
Bake it.
Let it drown in oil.
{Oh yummy}
Or let it burn.

As for the bigger things
in life,
ya.

I worry.

But let me just say...
Conference sort of gave
me a new perspective.
{As always}.

It was as if President Uchdorf's talk
{among many}
was speaking directly to me.

Heavenly Father could have been
sitting there next to me saying,
"Girl,
I got this.
You know I do.
I've been here from
the moment you were created.
Don't you realize that?

I think about you every day.
Every moment.
I think about your worries
of that lack of milk in the fridge.
I care about your feelings
when you have a bad hair day.
I ponder the thoughts you have
about wanted to make the right
decision in a selection of your
eternal companion...
and I know you don't want to
disappoint that future husband
of yours.
I know you're working towards being
the best wife you could possibly be
with all your stength.

I know that you worry
about the whole school thing
and want it to work out.
You don't want to give up.
You want to keep becoming,
while still doing My will.
I know.
It's tough, huh?

I understand.
I think about how your
body aches and your eyes
can't stay open.
I think about the peace
you find from sun light
and the wind.
{That's why I give it to you}.

I think about your constant thoughts
about making sure others are happy.
I care about what your favorite snack is.
{You should eat chocolate more often. ;)}

I want you to know,
I hear those prayers.

They aren't just lost to the wind.
I actually LISTEN.
I don't pretend to.
I do.

And I am here.
Talk to me, sweet girl.
I do listen and pray
for you.

I want you to tell
me about all this
so that I can help out.
Give you that hug.
Wipe your tears.

I care so deeply,
that you can't even
comprehend it.

YOU MATTER.

Can you remember this
for me?

And keep smiling that
radiant, beautiful smile?

'Cause it sure makes my day. ;)

I love you,
sweetheart.

Never forget it."

**********

*Whew. :)

I have a good life.
I am so grateful to be here,
and above all,
so phenomenally over-joyed
that I have such a marvelous
Father in Heaven.

Thanks for watching
out for me. ;)

I love you too. :')

Love always,
Your Little Besty


27.9.11

Tu-day

I got up extra early this morning
to thoughts of toothpaste,
my crackely feet,
comfy blankies
and a tad bit of anxiety.

Other than the latter,
they all seem to be fairly
normal for the early hours
of a new day.

Let us touch on the latter,
shall we?
Anxiety?

True, I get anxiety
when I wake up
when I know a test
or performance is coming
that day.

Tis normal,
to say the least.

But, kids?
This squirming of my soul
was a tad bit different.
I took one look
at a little person
in a little picture frame
on my bed...
and my heart started fluttering.

Friends? Romans?
Countrymen?
My pet fish I don't have?

I know you may all
be sick and tired of hearing
about my BFF saga,
but the truth of the matter is,
I need this little space of screen
and cyberspace to throw my
thoughts to and keep
poor Besty sane.

So,
sorry if you hate me right now.

Maybe he'll read this someday.
Maybe he won't.
But let's pretend it doesn't matter,
eh?

Let's be honest.
The days are almost
to the teens.
Teens.
Like,
I could watch
Cheaper By The Dozen
in relation to days left in
the near future...
till the days equal
driving home from
Cedar City,
knowing that in a miraculous
few hours,
my best friend will
walk into my presence.

Does anyone have
Cheaper By The Dozen?

Guys,
what am I gonna do?

Thank heavens I'm going
to have women support in
the car ride home or else
I JUST might have a heart attack
and die...
which would be tragic seeing
that "chally re-united" {Ha. Cheesy?}
would have been hours away.

Sad.
Tragic.
Thank heavens that
won't happen.

All I can say, kids?
There mere fact that I'll be able
to look at his name in my phone
and know that I can actually
call it
is already sending me over the edge.

In a very good way. ;)

I just thought of somethin'.
What if I'M the weird one?
He may be an R.M.,
which sometimes entails
certain oddness,
but what if I have a bad case
of (-)MG syndrome?

What if I act weird?

Ah, shoot.
It's gonna happen.
I just know it.
Just my luck.

Then again....
I think he's the only
person in the world
besides those in my family
that the insttant I walk into his
presence?
I feel utterly complete and safe.
I don't have a care in the world.
No obligation...
I'm just me.
I don't even try.
It's just so easy...

So?
In conclusion,
hopefully this anxiety
will fade into a side effect,
and I can get back to thinking
about toothpaste,
crackely feet,
and comfy blankies.

Have a fantastic Wednesday!

Love always,
Little Besty