I was having a little chat with one of my dear friends on the bus ride home the other day about something pretty special to both of us.
Happiness.
Here we are, both of us young women going to school, getting a degree and livin' life like good young adults do. Of course, an education is important! Our minds our broadened, we accomplish, conquer, and become better. It's all goodness, don't get me wrong.
Well, then we got talking about the road ahead for us and what not, and something spectacular came forth. We made a lovely conclusion. Yes, a degree is wonderful and I myself have felt great joy from my experiences in doing so, but above anything else in life, the moment we are making dinner and the hubbie comes home to us....THAT, that imagine and happening will be the best moment of our lives.
My biggest dream since I've been tiny is having my own beautiful family and hubbie of my dreams forever. Why do you think little girls have little baby dolls? We have this drive and long to take care of people, even when we're babes our selves! At least I did. I played "House" all the time with my friends at school and neighbors. I had a tea-set and served my little stuffed animals, pretended they were my children. I wanted an Easy-Bake Oven so I could be like a mom making dinner for her family. My biggest dream above anything else is to be a mother and a wife. It's that simple.
Yes, I wanna travel to my dream destinations. I wanna teach music to little children, make CD's and what not- but I would be nothing without my beautiful little family and husband. It wouldn't even be worth it! I wanna share that with someone! I want to go to Africa and Europe with my hubbie. Granted, I'll need some moments to myself to enjoy every scrap I can, but I wanna share it! I want to sing with my darling little girls and boys before FHE and dance with them in the rain and have flour fights in the kitchen. That's what it's all about.
Look at that picture above with the mommy taking that turkey out of the oven. Yeah, it would rock to have that moment of accomplishing making a beautiful meal, but how much more spectacular is it with your little baby boy around your neck to enjoy it with you.
I wanna go on adventures with my kids. Take the probably beat up car with my kids stuffed inside to the mountains and lay out a blanket and count stars. I want to see my children running along the beaches and have my little boy come up to me crying because he got sand in his mouth. Haha....I just cry thinking about it.
I completely understand that every moment isn't bliss with a family. Kids fight, people cry, hearts are broken, frustration happens, the bills need to get paid- but I'm so happy for it all. It gives your family grit! It makes your little clan strong! Every second is worth it.....and life is the greatest teacher.
Maybe I won't jump for joy every time I think about washing dishes or doing laundry, but it's gonna be worth it. I'll love it deep down, because I'm a mom. I'm a wife. And I got a family to back me up. My happiest moment, kids. Having my husband come home after a long day, and I'm making dinner for him. Cleaning up my little girl's scratched knee and kissing away her tears.
Completely my favorite moments of life? No doubt about it.
Might I mention, that mommy is going to rock? Yep, I got mouths to feed, but I'm still me. Individual Ally who is still a daughter of God and is not over looked. That's how it is. Really. Mothers don't fade into the background. They are highlighted.
I can't wait to see my little boys on the porch like this. You better believe they have cowboy hats and overalls.
This is joy for me.
This is what I look forward to everyday. It's what keeps my going. The family I already have, and the one that's about to begin. :) I already have the greatest love for my future husband and little children. It's just bursting from every pore of my body and spirit. My dreams all come back to this. Family. And I'm gonna be their mother. I'm gonna be his wife. And that's all I really need.
Love ALWAYS.
Ally Besty.
this is all i think about all day, every day. someday!
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ReplyDeleteJust don't keep on saying "I'll be happy when" Be happy now, I believe a general authority said that :) just some thought. I'm happy for you though, you're coming to a big milestone in your life.
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LOVE this! Your blog always makes me cry! You are SO amazing!! I miss you dear!
ReplyDeleteOh FOR SURE, Heidi! I couldn't agree more! We can't just say, "I'll be happy when"-because we gotta be happy now. :) Yes, indeed! Thank you for that. And I'll definitely be checkin' out the blog! ;)
ReplyDeleteAh Amanda....my dearest. I miss you, too! So SO much!
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